I Wanted it Bad

Change. How bad did I want it? I wanted it bad.

I was frustrated, anxious, and depressed.

I felt bad for my family because I would come home sour and deflated because circumstances in my career and health were changing in ways that I didn’t expect.

It was MY responsibility to manage my emotions and actions and not theirs.

Years ago I made the decision to do something about it and help myself.

No one was going to get me out of my funk except me.

I started hanging around people who had what I wanted: that genuine lifestyle of freedom and fun.

I watched them and I studied them.

I did what they did which was tune out the noise and work on themselves.

They read books and so I read too.

They doubled down on personal development and so I did too.

I knew deep down I deserve a rich and abundant life but I was holding myself back.

I decided to challenge myself and make my own website. My cousin Richard pushed me and I’m proud of what I’ve been able to build online.

As I evolve, I’m excited to share my growth and express what I have to offer back into the world.

I made a conscious decision to also travel more and see places I’ve never been.

Going outside to see life in another country is definitely a way to widen the lens of perspective.

Today, life is different. I can breathe.

I smile with joy.

I have more money in my pocket which allows me to experience that freedom I was seeking.

I let crap roll off me as if I have oil on my skin.

Who gives a shmak what people think? Does it matter?

I know who I am and what I bring to the tables I sit at.

I embrace change.

It’s necessary if you want that life you truly want.